Crawling!!

i don't have video yet and i have to be fast but i wanted to let the world know my son is starting to crawl! it is hilarious--he has this thing where he pulls both legs at the same time...i know-- i need video. it is quite the adventure!

anyone have tips for dealing with curious kids and lamp cords?

we are doing more and more with solid foods--wow. oh and caleb started feeding himself the melt-in-your-mouth baby treats. HOLY COW...talk about a time of major transition. i just got my feet under me and now we are starting all over again...sorta :).

if anyone has tips at all...i am ALL ears.

just so to make sure you don't get the wrong idea--i love this stage...his persona is coming to life more and more and i love being there for it. i love being a mom and i love being able to love like this.

WoooooHoooooo!!

7 months!

these are the latest in pics of caleb. He is, as of today, 7 months old. the pic where he is looking behind him at the camera...he is standing on his own. he can do this for brief periods of time. he is very close to crawling but loves to spend time standing up too. Currently, his mode of transportation is rolling. he rolls wherever he wants to go and will spin around on his belly to get in the right direction so he can roll where he wants. he frequently crosses the family room to get to the christmas tree to cause problems. :)

Rob and I are having a lot of fun being parents. i love staying home with K. He is a happy baby unless he is hungry or can't get where he wants to go.

size update:
i only have the 6 month old numbers: 17 lbs 2.5 oz and 29.25 in long.

Thanks Ya'll

To anyone who has ever read/posted on a blog:

i just want to say it is a pleasure to read other people's blogs. i am not the best at making comments (i do try) on your blogs but i love to read what ya'll have to say. sometimes when i read what i have blogged i blush because i write a novel every time and honestly, some of my stuff just isn't that interesting
however
something occurs to me...no matter what someone else writes, it is always interesting because other people are interesting. (don't argue with me on this, you all know it is true:))

so in lieu of that information THANK YOU for sharing your stories with me (even though you don't really intend me as the audience ;)).

and thank you for inspiring me to be the better version of myself.

jill

A new Tradition

So i have this book that has a bunch of fun holiday crafts and ideas. In my quest to not be a scrooget i have done two: make christmas ornaments out of tin foil and make a gingerbread house. Really the gingerbread house is made out of a soda box 4 pack. Rob did the sides, back and landscape. i did the front and the roof. after we were done we giggled about it being the ugliest 'gingerbread' house we'd ever seen. so i thought i'd share the laughs. don't worry, next years will be better.

Back of house (this had me giggleing the most)notice how the candy canes slid down and made a pile at the bottom. i have no idea what rob's vision was with this.

side--candy cane crumbs (*note the icing should be wet when applying) also, i love how my windows are totally crooked lol

pretzles. (rob's descision)

front (by Jill) notice the large gap between the roof and the 'top' of the building. haha

Aerial view. (i had fun with the roof) Rob's landscape looks great!! He reminded me why: he is a landscape designer. silly jill, i shoulda know

Overall we had a blast with this. i am not the most creative woman ever and rob has all the artistic talent between the two of us. we are looking forward to when Caleb can do his own. Merry Christmas!!

Quirks

1. rob notified me that when i get excited i wiggle my toes. it is true, my excitement frequently bubbles over into jumping, squealing, stomping...much to the amusement of my beloved.

2. i frequently make up my own words. i can't remember any of the words right now but when it happens, rob will ask "is that a word?" and i always say yes. this usually happens when i am talking about something particularly intense.

3. i always have music running in the house...even when i am not home. i have done this since i got my first radio in my bedroom when i was in the 3rd grade.

4. Every time we get pizza, i eat leftover cold pizza for breakfast the next day. Rob doesn't like to kiss me after this...he thinks it is disgusting.

5. i always read the instruction manual. Bottles, window blinds, flat irons, vacuums, filing cabinets, knives, kitchen gadgets.

Thank you marcie for the tag. i tag...anyone who is interested. (i know...lame....)

Musings...

At this point, i have no idea what to write however i feel compelled to write...you have been warned.

Thanksgiving was great. i spent thanksgiving day watching rob play football (i was totally itching to go play) and eating. that night i spontaneously made the decision to go to pocatello, idaho where my family was hunting (my brothers, uncles, cousins and occasionally my father are bird hunters). I took caleb to see his grandma cari (thanks so much mom for all your help!) great grandma minnesota (yes that is my maiden name), great grandpa jack and great great grandma buffat. Caleb traveled like a champ, i got to listen to some cd's i got at the library and educate my taste in music and drive. i love love love to drive. seriously people, i could put hundreds of miles on my car if i had reason to do so (and we aren't talking very intense reasons ;)) it is freeing to see an open road, have good music so i can sing and think (yes, they do hand in hand for me).

rob had to work the weekend after thanksgiving (sucks being a landscapers wife and having good weather this time of year--i am praying for feet of snow to fall). i get onery and mopey waiting for rob to come home.
* * * * * * *
i love christmastime. i love the magic of christmas. i have denied this aptitude the past few years. sometimes i am way too pracitcal. there are always so many clever ways to justify not going to the trouble of celebrating something, or making a big deal of something or going out of my way to recognize something. perhaps this is the adversary's way of lulling us into a deadened and somewhat lifeless way of living. like watching others swim on a hot day. we can appreciate what it looks like and how enjoyable it must be to swim but until you feel the water flow over your skin, drown out all the noises and you can only hear yourself breathe and feel the contrast of the warm sun on your body and the cool water you can't appreciate how it is to swim on a hot day.

i suppose this is what is pushing me to put up my christmas tree. make christmas tree ornaments out of tin foil ( i lack the creative department). listen to christmas music a lot. watch sunsets while i cook. laugh more. sing more. spontaneously drive 175 miles to see family. dream more often. i feel like i have been watching others live life and trying to figure out what life is all about by watching. just like with swimming--i can't feel life until i live life. is this what the Savior meant when he said "lose your life and ye shall find it" (ok, i botched the quotation but you get the idea)? it would seem to me, the delicate balance of the ugly realities and the view behind the rose colored glasses is exactly what our Father wants for us and satan doesn't want. isn't that what the balance between mercy and justice is all about?? the paradox, the unbelievable melding of to totally opposing ideas, ideals even. someone once told me Truth is found in examing opposites.

This is a Truth that is starting to clarify itself for me:
the wonder of life we all think we loose as we move from childhood to adulthood is never really lost merely ignored. we turn our backs on simplicity in favor of worry, complication and details through an overwhelming need to fit in.

right now caleb is too young to begin to have any wonder or excitement for all that christmas is but i am in awe watching him and trying to make christmas special for him if only to see him stare at the lights or try to touch something increases my sense of wonder and simplifies my view.

why is this such a big deal??? we are a little weird--ok call us scroodge and scroodget. we have been married for 5 years this month and have put up a christmas tree twice. yes twice. we hated cleaning up christmas. i haven't decorated for a holiday since last christmas. i hate cleaning it up. (see what i mean about excuses?!) i really love the holidays but i have gotten more and more pathetic at recognizing them since i moved out.

move over ugly reality. i want to live.

6 month Milestone!

Caleb is officially 6 months old today.
the pictures (going left to right) ~20 weeks, one day old, 6 months old.

i can't believe it has been six months since i had him. it has gone by so fast!! i feel like a totally different person. he is just...wonderful. i am privileged to be his mother (what mom doesn't think that? :)).

so in honor of the big six months...six things i keenly remember:

*hearing him cry for the first time, not being annoyed and thinking "maybe i can do this mom thing".

*how much i loved to sit on the couch and hold and watch him.

*being way protective of him. I actually told a lady at costco not to touch my baby while we were standing in the check out line.

*rob, caleb, gabby and i went for a walk, i had given myself tendonitis in my knees ( i was really excited to workout) so i couldn't really walk and a rottweiler started following us. rob had gabby and i had caleb. i couldn't even walk fast to try to get us out of the situation. the rottweiler was HUGE and it looked like it was foaming at the mouth (freaky!!). it just followed us for a little while and then left us alone. i remember feeling so helpless and pathetic. it was incredibly irritating and frightening.

*trying to make dinner. caleb has a tendency to get frustrated when i try to cook/bake.

*running. caleb loves to go for rides in his stroller. during the summer when it was hot, i'd go running with him when it had cooled down a little but he'd get hot if i quit running so when i was tired and wanted to walk, he'd fuss and it forced me to run. it was great motivation.

short and sweet

i decided the following: it has been a while since i blogged and i have been writing eternal novels so this needs to be short and sweet. :) luckily for all of us, i have no idea what to write. guess we'll go for the update::
rob and i have had colds and miraculously caleb has managed to avoid sickness. gabby and caleb have been playing lately and gabby is fabulous with caleb (see pic). while i was making bread yesterday, caleb was screaming and i thought i was going to have a nervous breakdown but the bread got taken care of and caleb got mommy so everything was fine.

i learned that nursing mommies shouldn't take airborne (the miracle herbal supplement) because too many vitamins for baby and it has echinacea in it which should not be given to children who have not yet gone through puberty-immune system has not finished developing until puberty is complete and echinacea fiddles with your immune system (according to the knowleable lady on the phone).

that's all folks. :)

time warp

i saw this on my friends blog and thought it could be a lot of fun!!

20 years ago
Gosh, i was 5 years old--in kindergarten with Mrs. Mills at John C. Freemont Elementary. i remember learning how to cut out a circle by moving the paper, the boy who would rip holes in his shirts, my mom dressed up as a witch for the halloween party and trying to count the highest with things like a hundred-gazillion-billion. my brothers were 2.5 and my parents had gotten us a dog: Lady. Rob would have been in the 2nd grade. i don't know what he remembers from then...i am sure he was doing something mischievous with his brother, spen.

10 years ago
i was 15 and in the 9th grade. i was starting to make more friends, seminary was really good for me, i was starting to develop some self-confidence. i had a huge crush on a guy named jake, he moved at the end of the school year and neither of us ever admitted out crushes on each other but we played the silly "who do you like" game while both blushing for most of the year. i had mr. phelps for geography and got in huge trouble for brushing my hair (it hung down to my waist). i started to admire alan hurst for his crazy braniac abilities(he scored 100% on SAT). Rob was 16, a sophomore at Jordan, working at mulligans golf & game as a picker (i think) and driving the saturn--legendary family car. he hated high school and loved basketball.

5 years ago
this was a very piviotal time for me. i was 20 and we were engaged. i was going to USU in logan and he was in salt lake going to slcc. i came home nearly every weekend to be with him. we were trying to figure out what we were going to do for living arrangements. since we were both in school, rob had just gotten home from his mission in july and i had just gotten back fom maine ...we were almost destitute. we got the elsberry's apt. we worked for them in exchange for the rent. it was a life saver for us! i remember ritarae called me on afternoon while i was walking back to my apartment from a rhetoric associate meeting(writing tutor) to let me know they wanted us to move in. i was exctatic!! i also remember rob was really nervous to get married and after we were engaged he briefly had second thoughts-mostly due to the fact that he had pretty much no way to take care of me. i remember looking at trailers-a for real trailor park-for living. i don't remember being concerned-i was 100% confident that since i would be with rob i would be happy and we would be ok.

3 years ago
we has just bought our condo. rob was working for intermountain plantings and going to school. i was working for roundy clothing (job from hell) and in my last semester of school at the U. we were primary teachers for the 11 yr olds. i went to the las vegas air show with my in-laws, without rob. don't understimate the power of the air-show. we love them! we'd be going to this years but it is a TON of driving and we are not sure we are ready to do that with Caleb. and i don't exactly want to nurse in public. :) i think this is the year rob put the irrigation system in the backyard at the condo in december. i thought he was crazy-he had to use my blowdryer to heat the pipe and glue to get everything to work.

1 year ago
i was 2 months pregnant, a little sick and delighted. we had told are families but hadn't announced it for real until halloween. i was working for ProviderPay and rob was working for Odyessy Landscape. we were remodeling the condo, getting ready to do the cabinets in the kitchen. gabby(our dog) was getting walked every day and we were looking forward to the Hawaii trip (amazing) with rob's work. i really didn't like my job but was staying for the insurance. i think we took gabby to petsmart to get a haircut and she came home sick. diarrhea and stuck in a kennel for 2 or 3 days. it was sooo sad. she has never been back to petsmart for a haircut. we played catch on a regular basis. rob would play quarterback and i would be running back. i probably dropped more balls than i caught and usually i couldn't throw them back to him but we had fun anyway-and gabby loved chasing us and the ball. i think she went through two footballs.

Yesterday
hung out with Caleb, who is now 5 months old. he was eating every 2 hours and i was trying to recover from the really hard workout from the day before. nursing so much and trying to recover drained me. i ate like a horse and went to bed early. we did go for a walk in the afternoon, i had Caleb all bundled up in blankets, hat, sunglasses and a binkey--it was so cute. Rob worked all day and came home and worked on the basement. he is trying to get it ready for our renters who are moving in on saturday. eventful huh?! :)

Tomorrow
we will dress up like cleopatra and caesar and go to a halloween party. i am still trying to get the costumes ready. Caleb will go see grandma and grandpa hakes and probably aunt J.
funny how simple life is now that i stay home with caleb. he eats, sleeps, poops, drools and smiles at me all day long. sometimes we run errands, usually we go for a walk or a run. ironically, going from being soo busy and self-involved to a stay-at-home mom has been really good for me. my former job was a pretty toxic environment. being at home is great.

Next Year
we will likely be living in our current house working our current jobs. hopefully i'll be skinnier, the landscape will be in and caleb will be 1.5 years old. i have no idea what that means other than he will be all over the place and into everything. i fully expect a toddler that is a handful-i am hoping i have the patience and ability to be a good mom to him. Caleb will have a baby cousin to hang with. unlike when i was working, i am now inclined to take life much slower. i really haven't given a lot of thought to next year. so far my mental timeline takes me to mid-januray of this year.
i have spent my whole life planning for the next event and creating expectations for myself. Caleb has singlehandedly obliterated that abilty for now. i have no idea what to expect from a kid let alone of myself as a mother. i have a conceptual idea of what i want for my family; every day i try to create that or work towards the creation of it. that is how i live for now. it is a fleeting time i am sure, life will get progressively bussier as we have more kids and they get older. for now my little baby and i are taking life slowly.

Brought to you by the letter A...

thanks so much to Wendy!! for those of you who don't know, i will list the top ten things i love that start with the letter A.



1. Amor
i really like all kinds of love. of course, romance is at the top of the list, but i love my son, my dog, our extended families, our friends. when i was 17 and i had just meet rob i remember talking about what i wanted out of life...nothing more than love. i remember telling rob i would live in a cardboard box if i could be deeply and happily in love. what i didn't realize was how varied love is...and how hard it is to hold on to. it is something i can't live without.

2. Afterglow--album by sarah mclachlan
i adore music!! mostly i am into alternative rock music. jack johnson style music is very near and dear to my heart. i wouldn't know what genre i would put sarah mclachlan or imogen heap into but i love that type of music also. i am also a dorky new-age piano style music connoisseur. i used to play the piano and on occasion i will try to pick out some hymns that i used to be able to play. pretty much i always have something going in the background.

3. Atlantic Bottlenose Dolphin
i never watched flipper but as a kid i always loved dolphins! at one point i wanted to be a dolphin trainer at sea world. i absolutely love to play in water; more than once i have been accused of being a fish. this particular animal stands in for all my animal loves. i have a minature schnauzer named gabby. she is awesome although currently a little neglected. we had fish when we were first married--bunky and steeder--beta fish. after a while of rob taking of them i decided i didn't want them anymore and asked rob to take them to the canal behind the house we were living at the time. it was winter and the water had been drained also. rob still likes to tease me.

4. Austen, Jane
how can a girl live without her stories?! thankfully my best friends from high school (audrey and andrea) introduced me to pride and prejudice and my life has never been the same. this version (see picture) of pride and prejudice is wonderful andthis scene...never fails to give me butterflies. i know it is a bit of a mystery to men why this is so incredible and to be honest i am not sure i can articulate it but trust me when i say it is wonderful!

5. Apples
it is fall and i have discovered baked apples. take out core, create a bowl inside apple, little bit of sugar, cinnaman, and nuts bake at 350 degrees for 45-60 min and whala...your house smells like fall and you feel like a whole new person. these are a stand-in for all fruit...seriously probably my favorite food group. i try to watch my intake of sweets during the week and i have a huge sweet tooth. fruit is the antidote to this weakness.


6. Asleep
i love to be in bed sleeping or relaxing. 'nuff said.



7. Acadia National Park
this is my favorite place. i went there when i lived in maine. it is rugged and unique to a girl from the western desert of the united states. i loved this place. i have resolved to go back. when...no idea but i loved it there!!!! if you can ever go...i highly recommend it! it is outside bar harbor maine. it is worth it!

8. Athletic Training
i love to work out. in any way. i love to be pushed hard. i am one of those crazy girls who has more than once, worked out so hard i couldn't walk the next day. i suppose you could say i am addicted to working out. i was never an athletic person growing up. i had zero confidence...i still lack confidence and experience playing sports however i love go out and sweat my guts out in any way.


9. Appearance
i needed a fancy word for fashion. i love to dress up, wear jewlery and be all girly. i will admit caleb has cut in on my chances to doll up, he loves to play with my jewlery and earings. i love to shop especially bargain shop--nothing better than finding freakin' cute clothes for cheap!!! :) the pic doesn't really go but....cala lily's make me think of beauty.


10. Apostles
i am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. we are led by a prophet and 12 apostles. I believe these men are inspired by Jesus Christ himself to lead us in His ways. i believe Jesus Christ knows me and loves me and wants me to be happy. the apostles help me become closer to Him.

My Dad

i was looking through my pictures on my computer, saw this picture and was reminded of a story. since i am in a blogging mood...here you go:

my parents, me and rob went to logan for rob's college graduation ceremony. after, we were getting pictures on the 'A' for posterity and my dad found this bike on the bike rack. it was not chained up and the back tire was almost flat. of course the most logical thing would be to jump on and ride around. being my dad he did this (know you know where i get it from) in his nice church clothes. we were all laughing, looking around for the owner--he almost tipped over riding in the snow on a stolen bike in the frozen tundra of logan, ut.

i am sure this sounds like a rather stupid story for those of you who don't know my dad however, we were laughing and every time rob or i bring it up, my dad quickly tries to change the subject...so this will totally harass him. Payback dad...lol.

honestly ...i love my dad. he has been instumental in shaping me as a person and has long since been someone i could always talk to and count on being understood and accepted. he is a wonderful person and has taught me many things among which...how to handle being teased. thanks so much dad, i love you!

DCS & Heat

My brother called me this afternoon from a phone number i didn't recognize to let me know that the DCS (department of child services) had been notified we had a child residing with us without heat. LOL. It is true, we currently do not have the heater working. thankfully we have a space-heater in Caleb's room-that keeps things comfy for him. we warm our room with the heat from our showers in the master bath. truthfully, i spent half the day in caleb's room today.

this brings me to the point of my blogging moment: i am very grateful for the heat. frequently rob and i look at each other and ask "can you imagine if we had been pioneers". i can't. today, i had K outside looking at something with rob and it was so cold...those women who had babies while crossing the plains must have known their little one wouldn't survive...can you imagine?! what are we going to do in a natural disaster??

(the depressing part is over)

i have now lived in both extremes: no AC when it was 100+ (AC unit had broke and we procrastinated getting it fixed-don't ask why) and now no heat when it was snowing outside (again, we procrastinated...)

so this is a tribute to gratitude for smart fix-it men and brilliang engineers for coming up with (and installing) the beloved heating system and to God...who allows mere men to live in such comforts.

do you ever wonder if the pioneers shake their heads at all of us whiners and say "you have no idea what it is to struggle!" ??

Whoo-Hooo!!

we are finally moved in! well...there are still boxes hanging around and we don't have blinds on most of the windows in the house--little scary for when i want to work out. last weekend we got the washer and dryer and today i got the internet finally hooked up. i hated being without the internet-guess it is a sign i am addicted. LOL. now we get to start really making the house ours like decorating and buying more furniture, perhaps doing a landscape! ahhh it really happened...unbelievable

Caleb and Carrots

Yes, your eyes are not deceiving you: Caleb is gnawing on a carrot. i was eating a carrot and i handed this one to him--he promptly stuck it in his mouth. i figured it wasn't hurting him and let him fiddle with it for a while. 10 minutes later it was no longer cold and Gabby was absolutely dying to have some (she loves carrots more than anything). i figured k (my nickname for him) liked the cold in his mouth. and it is different than a binkey. LOL. my cute little man!

Ode to the Seasons

The weather the past few days has been inspirational! Fall is my favorite season of all! some of the best things in my life have happened to me in the fall:started going back to church. got engaged to rob. found out i was pregnant. bought the condo. bought the house. Somehow the change of the seasons heightens my awareness of God... His power and interest in one small, simple life.

i am a type of person who senses change when it is coming-usually this is to my dismay (i like my life). but when change comes i know enough to roll with the punches and look forward to what will come next-the next adventure if you will. fall is so good in this way... the heat, the glorious summer nights give way to the swishing of jackets and my most cuddly nature comes roaring alive as i pull out all my warm snuggly hoodies and jackets. i want nothing more than to sit by a fire, listening to calming music eating pumpkin pie and reading a good book (or watching a chick-flick). i love baking and am learning to really enjoy cooking and the fall means i can start to make yummy flavor filled soups and other delictable dishes that are best when the weather is cool. Now, having a baby with this weather is even better! we can go out running earlier in the day and we can go out any time without as much concern for Caleb overheating.

The fall wakes me up to a renewed sense of vitality. i am inspired to move forward, take on new projects and become the better version of myself. the perfect combination of sunshine and cool air wake me up to the miracle of life, the reality of love and all the opportunity that lies in between.

Homeowners!

It is official--we closed on the house today! i will admit, i feel a bit like i signed my life away. it doesn't help that the financial markets are insane currently. who knows...i suppose you could say we are taking this step on a wing and a prayer. Really though...Rob and i are thrilled! we went over after and checked out the house...construction guys were there putting finishing touches on it and it seems so normal that we are going to be moving... I am really looking forward to not having a family room full of boxes--and having more than two places to sit down.

My Little Homeboy

I decided my recent post is a little bit of a downer so we are updating...:). This is Caleb in his Nike outfit (thanks cousin jenny!). i just busted up laughing (what a mean mom) when i put the hat on...it cracks me up. Caleb is awesome...sleeping through the night, drooling and being cute. He loves to try to blow air over his tongue to make that fart-sounding noise. he tries so hard and it is so funny, especially when he spits all over. He gets a huge grin on his face!

i would like to officially announce we are moving. However fear not! we are sticking to the neighborhood. there is a house just down the street(a new street) we are buying (for those of you in the ward, Stanley's house). We are way excited and are hoping to move in real soon. Just in case you know anyone who needs a place...we will be renting out the basement...1600 sq ft $800/mo (includes utilities).

On a more serious note...

i found out a boy who was in my home ward, the same age as my brothers died today. He was over in Iraq and was killed by a road side bomb. i did not know him however he symbolizes hope, youth, the future... he died fighting for our country. i do not know how long he waited for death-- for his sake, i hope he died very quickly.
i wonder about his life. did he ever have a romantic relationship? did he ever kiss a girl? did he dream about his wife and the kids he would have someday...his white picket fence? what about the car he always wanted? what were his plans after he got out of the military? these and many more questions fill my mind.

his mother, father and sister must be devastated. for me, his death, the death of an acquaintance of my brothers brings the reality of war all too close to home. suddenly when i hear "there were X number of deaths today in Iraq" i realize that every one of those people have lives, families, hopes, dreams, pets, hobbies, love to give, and loved ones to lose.

i suppose the purpose of this post is twofold:
to say thank you to his family. they did not willingly sacrifice their son but they lost him while he was serving his country and protecting the freedoms of those i love--thank you. this young man did not die in vain.
and
to ask a question: what are you living for?

Caleb's rollover

This is official documentation of Caleb's first rollover! He is growing so fast...i cant believe he is three months old now!! My whole perception of time is skewed. While Caleb seems to change so fast...days go sorta slow but the weeks fly by! welcome to motherhood, Jill. :)

Breaking Dawn

since i have spent so much time reading Breaking Dawn, i thought i should acknowledge to the world (haha) that i loved the book!! honestly, i have read it twice (wince, that is so much time!) and i am trying to convince myself to wait for a little while before i pick if up again (ahh self control). Rob can be grateful that i am not working currently, i have spent most of my time reading it while he has been gone (or sleeping). so unlike before we had caleb. Rob says every time i get a good book, he doesn't see me until the book has been consumed. he loves to tease me about it. lol

Busted

i totally got busted! my husband was looking at my profile and noticed i had him listed 5th in my lists of interests. therefore i am changing it. i thought you all would get a good laugh. i promise! rob is my number 1. here is to you hunny...

Outsmarted by the Log-in

i just want to say one thing. i am a total idiot. somehow i thought i was pretty good with computers: i can type decently, i could do some things in outlook and enter stuff into excel but yesterday i got outsmarted by the sign-in for gmail and this blogger website. i just have to laugh at myself. i posted my brilliant remarks (snort), signed out then went to sign back in and ended up spending the next 45 minutes trying to figure out how to get back in. needless to say i was unsuccessful. googles brilliant suggestion: wait 24 hours. i did so and here i am...logged in. LOL

beware the bewitchment of the log-in.

a comment on something totally different
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Beginnings

i have never blogged before. My friend Tara asked me yesterday if i have a blog and somehow i felt like i was missing out on a piece of society so here i am...blogging (thanks tara).

i am a wife of 4.5 years. i am also a brand new mommy. My son, Caleb is officially 2.5 months old (not in the pic though). I still can't believe 3 months ago i was a very pregnant lady slightly resembling a beached whale. (giggle). now i find myself a learned diaper changer ( i had never changed a diaper before caleb) and a bona fide mom. for years i have been terrified to tears about being a mother. when i finally made my mind up to deal with my fears and bring a child into this world Heavenly Father reminded me who is in charge. a year and many tears later i was pregnant and still terrified. while still somewhat terrified of how much damage i can do i also see a larger opportunity for learning more about love (done preaching).

so welcome to the blog for the budding hakes famly